Thursday, August 04, 2005
♥ stress
HOMEWORK.TEST.MOCK EXAMS.PRACTICAL.SCOLDINGS.MORE HOMEWORK.SOCIAL STUDIES.MORE TEST.MOCK EXAM.
Prelims in 25 days
O levels in 89 days
this is a daily routine of sharifah tania.what a sad life i'm leading.its almost or maybe it is predictable.i can see or tell whats gonna happen tomorrow.more homework cause there is a long hols up ahead.more test coming up.comparing of 5/2 with other classes.ya i know our class is not on par with the science classes but would you all stop comparing us.they are science students while we are only art students.i hate it when teachers start comparing.i've been failing alot of test lately.like really alot.i've not pass anytest yet.except for accounts which i got a perfect score for it=)
today accounts mock exam was disasterous.i'm so gonna totally flunk it.i wish my brain can insert some kind of chip that will make me smart instantly.how i wish there is.tomorrow its friday!!!at last.i really need my rest.been sleeping late.everyday sleep at 2 or 3 and waking up at 6.tiring life huh?i just have to endure it for the next few months.i can do it.i really need all the support that i can get now.but i find it kind of hard to trust people around me.
have you ever trusted someone so much that sometimes you didn't expect them to hurt you so deeply cause you have faith n trust in them and when you pick yourself up again and begin to trust that person somehow or rather,there is something that prevent you from fully trusting the person again.its like you want to trust the person so much but its like you have been hurt too deeply that no matter how hard u try you can't really trust that person agian.once bitten twice shy.seriously speaking i'm actually lost.i don't know what to do now.you told me that you don't want to end it here.but is it true that you really don't want to end it here or are you just saying that just not to hurt me.Frankly speaking,i rather know the truth.i want the truth even if it hurts me cause deep down in my heart i know the truth is always the best eventhough it may hurt sometimes.just want to thank you for the past few months for making me happy,for the sweet moments,for always being there to share my joys and sorrows,for your support and lastly for making me feel loved.but i'm sorry for making you worry.sorry for making you feel sad.sorry for making you cry.sorry for disappointing you and i'm really sorry for those hurtful words that i've said to you before.i really do hope that you will be happy in future.just tell me the truth.that is what i really want.don't worry if its gonna hurt me or not.i can handle the pain.its the truth that i want.
LOVE IS AN ILLUSION THAT I SHOULD TRY TO FORGET...
