Friday, July 08, 2005
♥ happy
HAPPY,SAD,CONFUSE N STRESShave u ever felt happy,sad,confused and stress all at one time?well,i feeling all of them at one go...Sometimes i'm so happy that i laugh till i cry...sometimes i feel so down that i think no point in living...sometimes i'm confuse with all the things that is happening around me...i feel that i cannot trust anyone aymore..its like u have been hurt n backstabbed alot of times that ur heart dun feel the pain..its all numb...my heart feels numb now...i feel stress all the time..its like ur parents expect u to do well then u are afraid that u might disappoint them n the work in sch is too much..can u imagine my schedule for tuesday is like 745-145 school,230-400 tutorial and 5-630 tuition then i still need to finish up on my homework...i really cannot take the pressure...i'm scared of losing u one day too...day by day i found out that more n more ppl are liking u...i'm ok with it cause i know i can't control ppl and make them stop liking u...but its just that i feel insecure...i mean who wouldn't when u have alot of girls to choose from...thanks for saying that u won't hurt me cause u love me too much to hurt me...that was nice...i just hope that u meant it...oh ya...thanks for the present ya?really love it...oh ya...btw ur maid really scare me cause i didn't expect her to wish me...but thanks anyway..
Birthday this year was great...thank u,u all for ur presents and all who wish me at mid night and early in the morning...love u all=)oh ya...how many times do u want to wish me happy birthday ah,leng?haha...anyway thanks..she can win an award for wishing me the most no.of times...she even wish me 5 mins before my birthday ends...oh ya...leng also ask delaine to play for me a happy birthday song the day before my birthday...it was really sweet la...thanks u two...tanya charmaine nic are so nice...they blind folded me n made me sit on a chair..later they ask me to touch 6 things and guess wat is it..and i got 4 out of 6...not bad ah...then when they took off the blind folder and in the room there was candles and heart shape balloons everywhere...it was so nice that i teared a bit...i'm thankful that god had send me this 3 lil angels...oh ya..we also played the kissing game..haha...funny game...cyn came later on n we played more games...really enjoyed that day...i will never forget this day...went out with my parents for dinner..reach home at mid nite=)
school have been crap lately...stll draggy...alot of homeworks n always coming home late...i wan my o level to faster come n get done with it...o lvel malay oral on tuesday n o level malay listening on friday...o level malay results in a month time...stress...i wan a distinction..i shell end here...anyway love u kooby broady=)
