Saturday, May 28, 2005
♥ Holidays
the hols are here...i dun even feel excited abt it...why?i guess it must be cause of my results...i got an A2 for malay C6 for english and F9 for the rest of my subject...for my L1R4 i scored 35 and for my L1R5 i scored 44...sigh...how bad can my results be?but my class position isn't that bad...prelims in the late august and early september...my dad ground me for these whole month...i must wake up early and when i wake up,i must straight away study...everyday must at least study for 6 hrs...my mum let me keep my hp but my dad wants to confiscate it...but he alwatys forget so i use my hp only when he is not around...if they confiscate my hp i will die...now i feel as though i am in prison cause my dad keep checking on me..i have no freedom...Malay o levels on monday...its only a day and 25 minutes away...i'm scared...ms lim told me during the parents' nite that she expect a distinction from me on monday...my malay teachers,form teacher and all my family expect a distinction from me...how if i disappoint them?i will try my best on monday but wht if i suddenly have writers' block?how?i want my distinction too...whatever my grades are please dun blame me for disappointing you all cause i will be more disappointed in myself and you all should know that i've tried my very best...sigh...life is so stressful...wish me luck on monday ok?sigh...i'm so nervous now...i can't digest anymore malay words in my head...i sometimes hope that my brain can insert some chip in it...if that is possible i will insert english,malay,maths,biology,physics,geog,social studies and accounts chips in my head...how nice is that...hahaha...i'm must b mad to think of that...haha..well now in the right mind...my friends say i've acting strange lately...i laugh and talk to myself now...sometimes i scare them...i dunno y i'm like that...maybe i'm suffering a depression or stress..i dunno la...i want to go out during the hols!!!!i shall beg my dad to let me go out...but i doubt he will let me...but nvm...i shall just try my luck and ask...hahaha...ok...i wanna study malay now...peribahasa here i come=)
CHOMPS:hey...i miss you guys alot...i dunno if i can go out with u all during the hols...but i shall try asking my dad the day before our date ok?haha...study hard for mt o levels...i know al of u can do it...i've faith in u guys:D
You:i'm glad that u r not going anywhere...actually relief...work hard la...u are suppose to prove to me that u are dilegent rite?prove la...i believe that u are smart and diligent...so now u have to show me that i'm right...gonna miss you during the hols...dun worry abt me...take care of yourself ya?
Can't Smile Without YouYou know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you
You came along just like a song
And brighten my day
Who would of believed that you where part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away
And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile
Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me
And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you
