Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up. I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

Sunday, May 01, 2005

♥ exams

sigh...exams...stress...O level malay...

Exams in 2 days time...really not prepared...i'm going to flunk this exam n i'm prepared to get my hp confiscated...my mum say she will confiscate my hp if i fail 1 subject...so whats the point rite?even if i study like hell i'm sure gonna fail geog n then it will cause me to fail my combine humanities...and my accounts is like totally no hope...so no matter i study or not,my mum is gonna confiscate my hp cause i'm sure gonna fail at least 1 subject...try very hard to concenrtrate in class in this ultra hot weather but i always seem to be distracted...i was copying what topic will come out for exam during physics so i did not copy what she write on sound and she came to my table abd crush my sound and wave worksheet...i got a shocked...mrs boo scares me sometimes...social studies has always been scary but i enjoy her lesson alot...that time i was saying that when you have a larger income your expenses increase and she say its not true cause she have a big income but she have been wearing this shabby shirt for 5 years...its totally hilarious...i nearly died laughing during her class....nor and elizabeth call her lesson the period of fear...hahaha...no one will go to the toilet during her lesson...5/2 looks like a timid mouse during her lesson...ms daisy tan is setting our accounts paper and i heard that its really difficult...i'm dead...ahh...malay o levels in 29 days!!!!die die...

hmm...i miss u alot...now i can't talk to you at night...maybe its good in a way cause you can use that time to study for your mye...and prove to me that you are diligent...haha...thanks for msging me last fri...you really brighten up my day with those words of yours...i feel the same way that you're feeling....sigh...its gonna be a long 1 month or more...maybe we got to get use to it cause june hols are coming too...sigh...read her blog...she really loves you alot but she knows you love someone else...i can feel the pain she is feeling...but i can't do anything...if i were be with you,i'll hurt her...and if i choose to give you up,i will hurt you and myself...i don't mind hurting myself but i mind hurting you cause i never want to see you sad...so i rather hurt her than you...but at the end of the day its your choice if you want to hurt her or me...you look great this past few days...don't care what others think..if you like it...leave it as it is...anyway i really don't want to lose you...i'm scared it will happen..jo is scared that my feelings for you will fade but i told jo that won't happen cause if my feelings were to fade that quickly why didn't it fade during the november & december hols?in fact absence make the heart grow fonder...my feelings for you get stronger...the more i don't see you the more i miss you and the more i love you...its wierd how feelings grow...haha...anyway just want to let you know that i will always love you...

"Don't Wanna Lose You"

Say - say it ain't over
cuz my heart is crying for you
Down - deep down you know that
so can you forgive me the truth
I kept my feelings inside of me
but now I can see

Don't wanna lose you
I'm here to stay
did I confuse you - girl
believe when I say
I never meant to
hurt you that way
I can't take a day without you here by my side

I - I got this feeling
that you're gonna show me the way
How can I convince you
that love is the reason to stay
I kept my feelings inside of me
but now I can see

Don't wanna lose you
I'm here to stay
did I confuse you - girl
believe when I say
I never meant to
hurt you that way
I can't take a day without you
here by my side