Thursday, January 13, 2005
♥ school started
hey!!!it has been a long time since i last updated...have been really busy since results was out...rushing to do homework and going to christmas and new year party...than school started...i really hate going to school now...for the past few years i always looked forward to go to school...i will excitedly wake up early in the orning and get myself ready for school but now i have to drag myself out of bed and think should i skip school today...since school started on the 3rd,we have been having homework non-stop...now that it is a 5 days week it is tiring than ever...after cca have to rush home and do homework and can only sleep at 2 or 3a.m...our homework is not only one subject its like more than one and the teachers give us homework like we have no cca...i mean they can give us homework but please give us lesser homework cause we need tie for revision and rest...being in a sec 5 is really exhausting...we have to juggle homework,cca and of course our class commerce project...can you imagine with the amount of homework that we have,we still have to discuss and do the commerce project...i wish school would start a liitle bit later like 8 or 9 a.m than we can wake up a little later...haha...that will never happen...in my dreams...cca nowadays are quite fun apart from the STUPID rumours...this rumours have been going around since last year...so i'm like kind of used to it...i have been thinking alot lately...should i let u go?half of me doesn't want to but the other half just want to let you go cause i'm just too tired of it...its like waiting for something that is not possible...anyway its my O level year this year so have to really concentrate and this thing is kind of stupid but like i always say feelings are hard to control and dreams are hard to lead...jo and eileen would know exactly what is running through my mind...they know i'm afraid of things that i don't want it to happen...they know how i feel inside out...i pretended to be ok but deep inside i feel like crying...i'm confused...really confused...i can't stop feeling that way...
[the chomps]Thanks for being alwaes being there for me when i needed you...haha...thanks for keeping my secrets...i know it will be safe with you guys...when is our next visit to chomp chomp?
[i do love you]
i wish upon the stars,
i wanna be right where you are
U brought happiness to my world with ur smiles
i am so happie with my life
i wished u'd be as happie as me
sometimes people live as if they've another life
we should be glad we're still here todae
people dont't seem to care till the last moment
i used to turn around and walk away
never stopped to smell the flowers by the road
there didn't seem to be any spark of attraction.
but in my heart i soon began to realize
what a fool i had been.
so now, i changed directions.
knowing it might seem too late
it suddenly came over me
i felt that life is indeed too short.
so what u will do if it was really your last??
in this peculiar world, where dreams are few
hang on to whatever you have
treasure whatever you earned
is this too much to ask for?
i will take you to places you have nvr seen
places where young children starve and cry
think about how lucky you have been.
Love and cherish, people around you
And live life to the fullest
before its too late.
its a wonderful feeling, to feel Loved
and to Love.
so start now
let them know that you care.
_____i dO loveu_____
sHaRiFaH iS rEaLlY cOnFuSeD aBoUt HeR fEeLiNgS rIgHt NoW...
