Tuesday, August 31, 2004
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feeling extremely down today...alot of things happened that made me really really sad...early morning was feeling alright during the teachers' day celebration...but after the celebration had to go back to class cause ms adeline lim wanted to give our social studies prelim paper back...scored a 14/50...how bad is that?....someone please tell me i am dreaming...how can i score badly in my social studies when my N level exam is NEXT TUESDAY(070904)...teared a bit...alot of people telling me that i still have 1 week to work on my social studies...i know i have a week to work on it but do you the pain of failing a subject badly...i was already feeling very low and something happened which i can't say...my day was getting worst at that moment...try to act to be happy but somehow i can't...went home...was suppose to meet lisa and eileen they all to eat dinner but i decided not to meet them cause were feeling down and dun want them to suffer from all my temper...there is also another reason that i dun want to go but i can't say...i am pissed and at the same time hurt...next time if you want to tell me something can you just tell me straight in the face and dun go beat about the bush...you know i can't stand hypocrite people but u still try to be one...you keep on telling me to stop thinking about this and that and study...but please i study everyday till about 3 and you said i was slacking?...maybe i shall not even sleep and stay up the whole night to study and in that way you will be happier...i having alot of pressure from all the studying that i have been doing and i really dun need the pressure from YOU!!!i wish i am a baby who doesn't have to worry about anything but well i guess i have to vome back to reality where i am surrounded by piles and piles of paper and books...i guess today is just not my day...got to get down to some real studying now...bye
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
eileen:thanks for being my light during my darkest moment...thaks for alwaes listening to whet i have to say...thanks for waking me up from my dream and most importatntly thanks for being my best friend...
Friens will come and friens will go,
The season change and it will show,
I will age and so will you,
But our friendship stay strong and true.
