I don’t know why but my heart aches a lot and I feel like crying

It’s been a while since I last felt like this

It’s true when people say love is a risk

It’s a game not for the faint hearted

Being in love puts you on cloud 9 but being out of it makes you fall hard to the ground

What have I done wrong till you are ignoring me?

I hate people ignoring me. Esp when I don’t know the reason

I am still wondering what went wrong between us.

I just hope it’s you pms-ing cause I don’t know if my heart can take another heart break

I hope it’s just me over reacting and things are not as bad as I portray it to be.

I don’t know why I am writing this but I guess I need to just express how I feel

Hopefully, by doing this I will feel better.

I’m still clueless and somehow it sucks not knowing what’s happening

I guess a small hint will do me good.

It’s not too much to ask for right?

I really don’t know what’s happening now but I hope when you are ready you will let me know

Let me know how you feel and what you are thinking and not leave me in the dark

Cause somehow this feeling sucks.

There is a saying that goes, don’t hate the player, hate the game. Hate the love game.

Maybe I should hate the game.

Its almost 7 am and i've not slept a wink yet. Its been like this almost everyday. Its kind of good though cause its the fasting month which means the later i wake up, the lesser time i've to endure before i break fast.Good strategy eh? Well on second thought maybe not. Sleeping at this odd hours are causing me to have a break outs.

Hafi is still online at this hour. She's killing bed bugs and playing L4D. Speaking of her, she came to my house yesterday to break fast and accompany me to watch soccer. It was fun isn't it? I wanna go Geylang soon to get into the mood of fasting/raya and of course to visit my best friend Mel. Whoever that is reading this, PLS TAKE NOTE THAT MELISSA CHAN IS HAVING A BAZAAR AT GEYLANG SERAI. SHE'S SELLING ALL SORTS OF BOOKS AT A VERY AFFORDABLE PRICE.ITS LOCATED NEAR THE MRT TRACK.

Went to watch G.I Joe with Priya on Friday. I must say that it was AWESOME! I wonder how Hafi fell asleep in the theatre twice while watching it. Weirdo. I wanna watch The proposal, The Ugly truth, G-Force, Final Destination and i think thats it. Did i miss any? I think not. Should i sleep? Maybe i shall wait for the sunrise. I think my insomnia is getting worse. That day i slept at 10am.

I'm currently thinking of a business proposal. I want to sell Pineapple Tarts for Hari Raya. 100 pieces for $30. Good money eh? Should i or should i not? Maybe i should. Any takers? No worries. You won't have any food poisoning. I'll be strictly under my grandma's guidance. She's a good cook you know? Oh ya, my mum is selling cake lapis too. The flavours are strawberry, asam manis, rempah, chocolate, jackfruit, pandan aqnd prunes. She is selling it at a price of $40. Feel free to call me for any enquires. Alright, i shall go off to bed now since its 7am now and i can hear the annoying birds chirpping. Ciao.


So its 2am and i am still not asleep. Why you may ask? I guess my insomnia is back. Now i need company. Anyone care to keep me company till i fall asleep? If interested pls call me,you know my number. Yesterday was rather nice. It felt a little different compared to how it used to be but overall it is still okay. I admit that i miss the old days but i still appreciate the time we spend together yesterday. I hope you have a great time celebrating your birthday even though its 2 weeks late. I wish you happiness in everything you do=)

I am still not sleepy. Have you ever wonder what is god future plan for you? I guess nobody knows. I wanna be more appreciative about the things around me starting from today. You will never know what will happen to you or you love ones when you wake up. Sometimes you may be too late and regret it later. Now that Influenza A has hit Singapore, i will take this opportunity to treasure the people around me more. Who knows, i might just be the 1st victim of this virus to die. But if i do, i will make sure that i will leave this world with no regrets. oh no i am emo-ing!!!! (happy thoughts happy thoughts) Okay. still no happy thoughts. I think i should just go watch TV. I'll leave you with my favourite song. Going out to you <3


OMG i am just overjoyed! I couldn't have asked Barcelona for a much better result. They won. Barcelona won over Man Utd. Yes you read it right. Its not a typo error. Just by writing that, i feel a happy sensation tingling down my spine. I may not be a Barcelona fan and hated them for kicking Chelsea out of the Champions league, but i hated Man Utd more than i hate Barcelona. Plus now i have my new found loves in Barcelona; Bojan, Henry and Messi!!! Barcelona did not play amazingly well, they played their norms but Man Utd were just not at their best. During the game, i wondered what the outcome would be if Chelsea were the ones playing Man Utd instead or Barca. Would Man Utd still play the way they were playing this morning or would they have played a different style against the Chelsea team? I think if they were up against Chelsea, maybe it would be more entertaining. As we all know, the EPL is the favourite league in the world and the tempo of the game is much faster compared to La Liga and Series A. Overall i still enjoyed the entire game. Barcelona certainly played beautiful football just like how Arsenal plays. Enough about the Champions League, now i hope that this coming Saturday, Chelsea will beat everton just like how Barca beats Man Utd. Come on CHELSEA! Blue is the colour, Football is the game. We're all together, and winning is our aim. So cheer us on through the sun and rain. Cos Chelsea, Chelsea is our name!


I couldn't sleep yesterday cause my stomach was hurting like hell. It felt as though someone was poking my stomach with lots of needles. I wonder if people are doing voodoo on me. So i couldn't sleep, so i rub some ointment on my tummy but to no avail it still hurt. Finally i began vomiting and shitting non stop. I felt horrible and drained out but i still cannot get myself to sleep due to the pain that I'm having so, i went to watch TV. Instead of me watching the TV, the TV was watching me. YES i fell asleep in the living room. The next day when i woke up i didn't have to go to school cause there was no class and project are to be done at home. So it was not that bad as i stayed home. Okay i think enough about my day.

I just have to rant about another issue. I heard that the AVA are going to come and catch all the stray cats near my house and put them to sleep. That's not fair. Animals have their rights to you know?They have the same rights that we humans have. What happen to equal rights? I just think that some humans are so self obsessed and self absorbed and they think they are the only ones who have a say in everything that is associated with EARTH. Don't animals deserve the rights to live on earth?Just like us, they wanna live their life too you know?If anything happens to any of the stray cats, i hope you will get your retribution back and burn in hell. Die bitch!


Hmm I've decided to start blogging again. Hopefully this time round I will not let my blog rot for more months or even years. The weather have been terribly hot lately. Went to Marina Barrage and Kampung Glam today to look for my TM project site. I think we have decided on Kampung Glam. My aunt and cousin from Sweden will be coming back back here this Saturday! I think it will be a enjoyful month=). Okay i think i will update another day cause i am too tired now. Toddles!





HI! Sharifah& I are currently at Priya's house.
Sharifah is plucking my dead hair.
VERY FUCKING PAIN

She like fucking dead ah, not blogging anymore.
Kental.
I need to sleep.
I slept for 3 hours only.
goodnight, i cannot tahan already.


GOOOOOOOD AFTERNOON TO ALL SHARIFAH'S READERS.
Hafi in the building,
Shar is currently busy with Raya so I decided to give her a loveeeely surprise by updating her blog without her knowing.
UHHUH.
DUUUH! The entry is all about me& my oh-so-wonderfulness
OMG! I'm so gorgeous. HAHAHA!
Okaaaay that's abit off.
My raya was fun, go check it out at my blog http://mylovelove.blogspot.com (:
&


I don't know what to blog. --"

Okay Hafizah has left the building(:
Comment on her blog okaaay! its a little dead.


Ok. Its time for a long overdue post. I have lots of things to blog about. But i don't know where to start. Hmmm, i think i shall blog according to dates as it will be easier.


Monday 18th June 2007

Met mel at 5 at N2 to go to nic's house for "tanya's welcome back party". Took bus number 3 to whitesands. i bought for Tanya her favourite snack, pillows. We were walking around whitesands waiting for cyn and nic to come and meet us cause nic needs to buy drinks. As we walked around, we realised how much whitesands had changed. We used to hang out at whitesands Macs after school cause that is the only fast food restaurant there. But now, there is, KFC and BK. They even have ben and jerry's. Nic and cyn came so we went to NTUC and bought drinks and headed to Nic's house. When i walked through Nic's house door, i saw alot of people. And those people are all peopele whom i know cause they are my friends.As i walked in, they shouted "SURPRISE". i was super shocked but yet i was touched too. My friends have been planing a surprise party for me and Cyn. Erm well, Cyn kind of plan her own party.haha. This is the 1st time that a surprise party was really a surprise. Somehow i'm glad that some people didn't spoil it for me cause i really love surprises.The party was more of a catching up session for all of us. I would like to thanks sharon, madeline, adelyn, weiwei, eileen, lisa, sam, rach, debbie, muni, JS, mel and eddee for coming. Wait! did i leave anyone out? Erm i don't think so. Then i would love to thank Tanya, Cyn and Nic for planning all this. I reallly love you guys not only for the party but for everything! Thank you people for all those wonderful presents! I love it alot! Birthday came early for me this year=)


Tuesday 19th June 2007 - Friday 22nd June 2007


I went pulau tioman with my parents, grandma, aunties, uncles and cousins. Woke up at 5 am on Tue. Washed up and we drove up to Mersing. Reached there at 11 and we took a 2 hr long ferry to Tioman. REached tioman at 12 plus. Checked into our resort and it was swimming and more swimming in the beautiful bluish green water. I was afraid of being dark so i put loads of sunblock lotion.hahaha.On the 2nd day, we got up bright and early. We had breakfast then off to take speedboat to go for snorkling. The fishes there are HUGE and beautiful. The corals are absolutely georgeous! We also went to the Marine park where we can feed the fish. It was FUN.


On the 3rd day we went to the waterfall. But before that e have to hike up through the forest for 20 mins. Ok, all of us nearly died. Well actually its more of me.hahaha. But the water there made it all worth it. I hurt myself alot there. my skin tore and it made it hard for me to walk. Basically our holiday consist of alot of swimming!haha.On fri we left the island at 1 and reached mersing at 3 and reached s'pore at night. It was tiring but i enjoyed it. But most of all i missed my PHONE!

Sunday 1st July 2007

Thats my birthday! The day before had a birthday treat from my parents at Swensens. On the day itself my mum just bought a cake and i made a wish.thats all. On Monday we had a family BBQ to celebrate my birthday! My mum asked if i wanted to invite my friends but i said no. The reason is that, i think i spend more time with my friends than my family. So i've decided to make it a family affair thing. Thanks to all those that wished me at midnight and on theday itself!

Wednesday 11th June 2007

Had another birthday dinner with the L.O.V.E.S at Chomp Chomp! We had FUN talking, eating and laughing. Eddee, mel and i had this HUGE glass of sugar cane. We should have shared. So we will high on sugar cane. Erm , actually its more of me.haha. Tanya we shoukd go there again before you go back to America. Its either Chomp Chomp or 85 ok?

Overall,Birthday was a blast this year=) i had fun in the month of June and July. Eventhough its not the end of July yet, but i know i will always love JULY! haha. Now i can't wait for AUG. Somep will know why but most won't. Till the next time that i blog for now, au revoir




The place

The HUGE cup of sugarcane

Presents and me=)


i don't really have the mood to blog right now. but i just though i leave you with a song lyric which i find it nice + sad! oh well here it is

I never meant the things I said
To make you cry
Can I say I'm sorry
It's hard to forget
And yes I regret
All these mistakes

I don't know why you're leaving me
But I know you must have your reasons
There's tears in your eyes
I watch as you cry
But it's getting late

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand
And told me you loved me
But now that I find
That you've changed your mind
I'm lost for words
And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand
You won't understand
How much it hurts to let you go

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right

But if you turn your back on me now
When I need you most
But you chose to let me down

Won't you think about what you're about to do to me
And back down...

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfor
tYou're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in(Yeh yeh yeh)
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
I guess I'll never know...

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[.Sharifah tania.]
Twenty-One
1ST JULY 1988
Bachelor of Commerce in Hospitality & Tourism Management and Marketing Management

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